They say you are what you eat...

And that's why I'm a big chicken!!!

I have been a horrible blogger, this I know. I feel like I don't have time to write about the trivial things in my life and recently big things that have happend seem like a chore to blog about. I just have been busy with other things.

Well this is something that definately should warrent a blog entry.

I applied to a company called Home Instead to be a caregiver to make some extra money to help my mom with her financial situation a week or two ago. I was hired on the spot pretty much but they had to check my references. I have yet to be assigned to a client. (I would be helping and elderly person with simple chores around the home for a few hours and get paid decent money to do it.)

Yesterday I get a call from one of the co-owners of the franchise. At first I thought it was to offer me a shift. But she asked me why I was working at a place like Atlanta Bread. I explained to her the process of what made me land full time there. She then offered me a job with Home Instead! Like take the job if you want it offered me. The position is front desk representative. I mostly would be answering calls and doing computer work. She asked me to stop by after work to talk about it more. After I hung up the phone I got a feeling of elation and sheer joy. I thought that God was offering me a golden opportunity. Afterall, they sought me out. I just put my foot in the door and they took it from there. I could finally get back into social services instead of being stuck at boring food services...(although it's rarely ever boring at ABC...in fact this job might be more boring in the grand scheme of things....) but it was an out. I thought about it the whole day and I was in one of the best moods I've had in a while.

I danced the idea in my mind of wearing normal people clothes instead of a smelly uniform. And weekends to go places and do things and a normal schedule. It sounds awesome.

So I dropped Laura off after work at carsense so she could pick up her new used car and drove to Home Instead and met with Amy the lady who offered me the job. Then the power of reality set in. They need someone to have common sense and pay attention to detail because small mistakes cost them time and need to be avoided....and sitting at a desk all day??!? I am used to running around and being on my feet. I will get sooo tired just sitting there not doing anything. Is this job really for me....Everyone seems to be encouraging me to take it. I want to take it but I don't have very much confidence in myself considering the circumstance I found myself in last year. I certainly don't want history repeating itself. I want to be able to be good at this and it seems like there is a lot of stuff to learn. I hope if I take it I'll do well but I'm scared.

Then there's the art of actually quiting Atlanta Bread. I know how hard it is for them to find good employees and not to brag, but I am one of the strongest workers. Not everyone will be willing to work the extra hours and stay late like I do, or be willing to take on additional responsibilities. I feel like I will be leaving them hanging in the lurtch. I am a people pleaser and I do whatever I can to keep people happy. But no matter what I do I will dissapoint somone one, if not myself. I can see how no matter which choice I make the potential for regretting it. Should I stay or should I go now? I dunno.

This is why I'm a big chicken. The fear of stepping out in faith. Why do I all of a sudden have a craving for mustard??