My happy windshield

"You know how it is when you are driving and all this dirt gets all over the windshield? There's more and more dirt . Just dirt, dirt, dirt. And pretty soo, it's all dirt and you can't see anything? Well, that's when God comes. He brings along the water that washes all the dirt away so you can see again."

That is a great analogy made by a 10 year old girl who lost both her mother and then father to cancer, that I read on a website. She really does bring a great message of hope. It left a great impression on me.

I didn't get the job that I was hoping for. But it's ok, they said that it was a tough decison because I did a great job on the interview but they ultimately decided to go with someone who had more experience than me. He said that he wished that there were two positions open and asked if he could hold my application and call me as soon as something else opens up.

So it's encouraging to know that I almost had the job and, they even feel a little bad about giving it to someone else. There's still hope for me. And God is so good.

Since the beginning of this year (even toward the end of last year), life has felt really good to me. My "windshield" seems so clean now. I have definatly had a pretty dirty windshield in the recent past. I'm amazed at how freely the postitive outlook on life came and suprised at how easy it is to experience peace, when before I had to constantly remind myself to try, try, try, try, and keep trying to be joyful. Much, much easier said than done. Actually it was quite difficult, and even torture at times. But know there's a release of tension, and a trust that I never knew I could experience. It's truely freedom. It's a personal change that I've noticed within myself. It's quite evident that God has been at work in my life.

twenty four no more

Today is the last day I'll be 24. I am finally making peace about it. I have been dreading it for a while but now that it's here it's coming whether I like it or not so I might as well take it in stride.
I was thinking there is almost as much pressure with turning 25 as there is with turning 30. It could be a scary thing. I feel so adult now... it's hard when you think that you up to this point you've spent most of your life being young. I'm still young, but only to the people who still wish they were 25. This should be the prime of my life, right? So then I'll make it be the prime of my life and enjoy my life before it's too late.

I'm enjoying seeing Nina's baby neice Alicia. She is sooo cute. She smiles and laughs and coos. She is so fun to watch. We were supposed to go to Cindy and Josh's church this morning, but her car broke down on the way there. She called her Marilyn, their mother and AAA. Not long after while we were waiting on the side of the road a cop came over to see what was going on. He was really concerned about her and the baby and sat in his car and waited until Marilyn and the tow truck came. Nina stayed with Cindy and I went with Marilyn and the baby back to the church. I sat with the baby during the service while Marilyn sang in the choir. Alicia was so good she was a lot of fun to watch. She was grabbing my fingers and looking all around.

Nina, Cindy and Josh made it back ok but they don't know what is wrong with the car yet. I'm glad that Nina and I could be there with her so that she didn't have to be stranded there by herself with the baby. Everything ran smoothly.

Marilyn made my favorite dinner, elegant chicken. It's soo good she makes it almost everytime I come to visit. It makes me feel special. She also made me a boston creme pie cake. It was good. It's nice to be here to visit with Nina's family.

Feeling ho-hum...Like a V-Day BUM!

I'm sneaking this at work, but, I can't believe the crack that was made at me today just now.
I was talking with a few of my co-workers in the office, Karen, Kathy, and Lynn, and I asked Karen what she was doing tonight for Valentines Day, and immediately Kathy interjected "she's doing the same thing you are...Nothing!" Is it that obvious to the world how lame I am?
"How would you know if I have no plans?" I responded. "Because we know you Lynette" they all unamiously agreed. I told them that I might go to an anti-v day party. "A what?!?" "Anti-valentines day party." Then laughter filled the air. "Oh c'mon Lynette, don't be so disenchanted" Kathy responded. So I guess that must make me a Valentines Day loser. If that's the case I'm going to stick with my original plan and going home to knit.

Happy Birthday Becca!!!!!!
(I bet you like the title of this blog, right???)

What a day...

Ok, I am totally skeeved out!!! I just got out of the dentist's chair to have a small cavity filled which is bad enough as it is....Finally I thought I've found a decent dentist....He was nice and personable enough considering he overbooks himself, but he had a pretty decent sense of humor, but....I don't care who you think you are, wear gloves if you're going to be putting your hands in my mouth!!! EWWW. The dude had no hand protection, I had no idea if his hands were clean or not and I was in no position to say anything with all these instruments in my mouth. To make matters worse he didn't even cover his face with a mask. He had the thing around his chin instead! And dude, say it don't spray it! He had spit flying everywhere, I have no idea if it landed in my mouth or what! I'm truly repulsed....He did an ok job on my dental work I guess, but it doesn't make it worth it if in the back of your mind you wonder if your at risk of contracting some form of hepatitis or something. I'm totally grossed out now.

On a better note, let's backtrack. I went on my interview for Life Choice Hospice Care. I interviewed for the position of hospice social worker. I really hope that I nailed it! I was there for over an hour. I have no idea whether or not I'll be offered the position or not because they are interviewing all week. But if they do offer it to me, I'll have a really hard time not accepting it. I'm actually pretty excited about it. God has a way of putting things in my life that I once swore I'd never do. Before it was working with seniors. Now if I get the job, it's gonna mean a hour long commute and possible case work in Philadelphia. Two of my less than desirable job ideals. But God has a way of taking me out of my comfort zone and showing me that the things I lack confidence in can turn into strengths...Like driving for example. I used to be directionally challenged and afraid to drive anywhere out of my hometown. Now with my trusty road atlas, I'll take on any new adventure, and I really don't even need it most of the time. I have really improved my sense of direction. I feel like this position would be good for me. I really do. Only time will tell. I know I'm in God's care and that is all I need.
Nonetheless, prayers are greatly appreciated anyway.

I'm having computer withdraw since Nina's computer hasn't been working. I'm at the county library typing this. I guess it could be a good thing though. I can be doing better things than checking my email every two hours.

What a day!