Mundane Monday

I am at Eastern right now killing some time before my Dominican Republic mission trip meeting tonight. I am excited to finally meet the girls in my group and reconnect with the two that I already know.
This has been a really mundane day after a nice weekend away from reality. Cindy was a beautiful bride and the wedding and reception were quite lovely. Unfortunately, I had a heavy set of cramps, worse than I normally experience, so I ended up taking a short nap in the backseat of my car for part of the reception.
Today I just felt so sad and lethargic. It was a real struggle to work today. I just couldn't stop thinking about Jeff, and the fact that he is finally gone. I dont' know why I don't have any tears to shed for him. My heart aches and I feel so sad but I guess I have an abnormal way to mourn. I read Bible passages mostly from 1 John, for comfort. I just don't know what to do with these emotional ups and downs that I get.
I have so much going through my mind about highlights of this past weekend, but I don't know what else to say. I don't really have any words.

In Loving Memory of Jeff Dean

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
When I'm found in the desertplace
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you
pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in,
LordStill I will say...

Blessed be the name of the
Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Oh, There's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord

Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

You give and
take
away
You give and take
away
My heart will choose to
stay
Well Blessed be your
name

Great SPRING Awakening!

I just absolutely LOVE spring!!! I love the warm weather. I love the cool breezes. I love the rebirth of new life. I love the sweet scent of spring; the stagnent musk of winter dissapates into a rejuvinating aroma that just lifts my spirits to unmeasurable heights. I love everything about spring; the buds sprouting, the birds chirping, the flowers blooming, the light raindrops trickling all around me. I even love the pollen . I love the atmosphere, I love the way it makes me feel like jumping out of my skin and singing and dancing and shouting for joy. For the first time in months I feel alive again. I am no longer hibernating, no longer as disconnected from realilty. For the first time I have enegry, I'm not as sleepy and lethargic. I have a reason to stay awake, to soak up the beauty all around me. To take a moment and reflect on the wonders of creation. I long for these moments, the newness of it all. The hope and the promises of a new day. I can't say it enough, I just love spring!!!!

I haven't been able to update recently. I have been cat sitting in Chesterbrook again since last weekend and I've been working at ABC all week. Today was the first day I actually got to enjoy the nice weather. It was a perfect day to go for a walk which is just what I did. Becca and I walked around Immaculata University. We sat on a pinic bench and prayed for Jeff as he is now in his final days. I hope that somewhere somehow he opened his heart to salvation. It breaks my heart to see him suffering.

We walked back under a canopy of trees and it felt good to be home. I really look forward the time I will get to spend surrounded by nature during the next several weeks.

Tomorrow is Friday and I took the day off!! Actually Becca, Marc, Bama, and I will all head on up to Waverly tomorrow for Cindy's wedding on Saturday. It will be a good weekend. A weekend away is just the ticket!